I'v lived my whole life as a bird who doesn't trust herself to fly which seems pretty silly now considering that to be born with wings implies the gift of flight without even trying." -Me
This morning I am remembering how to fly after a long time of forgetting. Even though there are a million things to do today I decided to ignore them all turn on some music and let myself move. For some reason this isn't always easy for me even though its what I do for a living. I am constantly forgetting to enjoy the experience of dancing just for the sake of dancing. I forget how beautiful and pure it can be to let emotion be expressed through shapes in space, and how quickly it connects me to my center.
As I let myself move I felt all the heaviness and feelings of being powerless slip from my shoulders. A heaviness that has been building for a couple of weeks. Watching all that is happening out in the world coupled with my own challenges has left me feeling more helpless than I care to admit. Looking around at the state of things I feel like the contribution I have to make is too small too frivolous, not enough. But as I moved something shifted. (Thank goodness too, lol! My family will be relieved to find me in a better mood.) I can't quite explain it except that somehow I snapped out of it. By being in my body I could meet the pain, and the anger, and the frustration that has been building, and let it go. I remembered what it feels like to fly, to create beauty, and to breathe in light, to feel weightless.
This is what moving our bodies does for us. This is how mindful movement connects us to our center and grounds us. For me its dance and yoga. These two ways of moving connect me to my power. For me I feel most powerful when my heart feels lite and I'm in a space of playful creativity. Not an easy space to get into these days. So much to take very seriously and to keep an eye on. We are living in uncertain and strange times, and I absolutely believe that vigilance and speaking out for what is right is necessary. We also have to find times of light and play and beauty or we will go mad. Ultimately I believe we are on this earth to remember how to fly. To remember that we have wings and that flying is what we already innately know how to do. To remember that we are already these beautiful birds of flight with gifts to offer. We don't have to become something more to contribute we already are.